Worth It


Megan, Me and Katie

I had a text from my daughter Megan this morning.  She’s engaged and living in Florida with her fiancé Matt who is a wonderful man.  She has a great job and a good life.  My older daughter Katie is also engaged to a good guy Blake.  They are happy as well, and I’m so proud that both of my girls are not afraid to take a chance on love.

Meg said:  Good Morning…had a dream you and I were sight seeing on the Golden Gate Bridge, and I was terrified of heights.

I answered:  I’m terrified of heights, but the bridge is worth it. (I saw the bridge when I was in San Francisco years ago, and it is a magnificent sight to behold.) 

What does this mean?!  I ask her.

She answers:  U weren’t scared of heights in the dream!  I dunno?!

I say:  Maybe I’m willing to take a chance now without being afraid.  How about U?

She says:  U showing me not to be afraid of anything.

I answer:  Crying…

She says:  Why am I doing that lately?!  Love U to be happy.

I say:  I am.  

I’ve been through hell and back in the last couple of years both emotionally and financially.  I’ve lost mostly everything I built in the past 30 years, but I’m still standing.  I am still strong and most of all, still hopeful.  If showing my daughters not to be afraid of anything is what’s come out of all that I’ve been through, then it was worth it.

About susezit

~ Expressing random thoughts and issues is my thing. ~ I’m complicated. ~ I understand quirky. ~ I'm a work in progress. ~ I've discovered I'm pretty strong. ~ I'm trying to become the me I've always wanted to be. (Essays are original works of the author. All rights reserved.)

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